Playing Catch Up…

Ok, it’s been a minnit since I last did an update so I’m going to cover a bunch of things that have been happening…

1.  Happy Blogging Birthday to Me!  

Happy Birthday to me!

Happy Birthday to me!

I turned 1 on April 17.  Wow! Looking back on the past year a lot has changed, some good and not so good.

Good:

  • Finally taking ballet classes and freaking loving it.
  • Putting my hair in a real “ballet” bun at least once a week.
  • Counting down the days to ballet class.
  • Doing my ballet ankle and feet strengthening exercises.
  • Knowing all the struggles I went through this past year have been worth it to finally be in ballet class.
  • Ballet class has been improving my wonky left ankle and geriatric back.
  • The amazing young ladies and women I take ballet class with.
  • My ballet teacher, Ms. Dorothy.
  • My husband and son letting me run off once a week to ballet class without too much fuss.

Not so Good:

  • I have re-gained all the weight I lost and having trouble getting going again in weight loss.
  • Wishing I could take more ballet classes during the week.
  • Realizing to dance the way I want to dance, I gotta get this weight off of me.  That’s not just aesthetics.  Bertha, my belly, gets in the way and protests when it’s time to squeeze into tights.

2. I’m a Slacker of a Blogger

I’ve been a total slacker in the writing posts department. I admit it and I admit it freely.  I do have a good reason!  See, years ago while I was pining miserably away at a job I did because it was a job and got a good paycheck, I would wish for a job that I would love and could use my writing abilities.  I got that wish and now I write all day, full time.  It’s legal writing, not the creative stuff, but I am a nerd and a glutton for punishment and I love it.  Job problem solved.  Which translates into a blog writing problem. After writing all day 5 days a week, I am pretty much done with writing for the day once I get home.  Like I don’t even want to think enough to formulate the simplest thing, like “Hi, ballet go good. I no go boom when I pas de chat”  So, that is my reason for being a total writing slacker on the blog.  I am pooped when I get home.  It is getting better now that I am adjusting to the full time hours. Oh, did I say full time?  That’s right…I was promoted to full time after two months….thank you very much.  Add that to the good pile above.

3.  I Went to a Ballet

I went to the local professional ballet company’s Spring repertoire production. It was fantastic and I took my 7 year old son with me and he loved it! I will turn this topic into another blog post.  There is just too much to say.  It was the first live ballet performance I have seen since I was in a ballet!

Last but not least…

4.  Ballet Class

It has been one of the most challenging and rewarding things I have done in a long, long time.  I leave class exhausted, sweaty, red faced, and exhilarated.  I love pushing my body to see if it can do more and amazed at how much my body just “remembers” how to do.  Some terminology I am still working out but it is coming back more and more each week.

I take class once a week on Monday nights.  I was lucky enough these past two weeks to have two classes per week.  I was off work on Good Friday and I was able to take the Open Intermediate ballet class.  That was a great class, not just the class itself, but also the other adult students.  Many were long time dancers and one was a teacher who teaches at this studio.  They were so nice to me and I really enjoyed taking class with them.  One of them even gave me a nice compliment that I had pretty feet! (Insert ballet blush here)  Also, some of the teenage advanced dancers took class too.  One even had her younger brother who was taking class to try out ballet!  I really like having the advanced girls in class because Ms. Dorothy will push the class more plus those girls are just great and dancing with those that are better are a great motivation to push yourself to do better.  Last week, since my son was gallivanting with the grandparents for Spring break, I was able to take the adult beginner class and that was really good to take so I could concentrate on basic technique.  The lady who was teaching was the one who was in the Good Friday class.  I really enjoyed her class and she was a great teacher.  A boy who was a friend of one of the advanced students, took his first ballet class with us.  He had some very good natural talent and I hope he sticks with it.  I wish I could take that class every week too.  Unfortunately, my schedule only allows for one a week.  So, I will keep picking up an extra class here and there when I can.

So, that catches ya’ll up on where I am as of now.  I am proud of myself I kept it under 950 words! LOL

 

Weight Loss Results Week #19

Ok so…I am late again this week on my update.  I forgot it was Wednesday on Wednesday but then I realized it was Wednesday but still thought it was the next day…so hence no update Wednesday. LOL  This is the first week of school and I’m still getting adjusted to my new schedule of getting kids to and from school, homework, feed children, feed husband and self, baths, laundry, feed the dog, and in all of that Wednesday was forgotten. LOL

I weighed in on Thursday morning and was a comfortable 181.  Glad I didn’t see any weight gain.  With my pants falling to the ground incident I was surprised to see no more weight loss.  I need to take my measurements to see what’s going on there.

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Weight Loss Results Week #16

Not too much to report here this week, I weighed in at 182.  Really, I am quite content with where I am this week given the developments in my life.  I did give into what I labeled as “Carb Fest 2013” on Sunday…and really…I felt so gross afterwards and my body did not like the crap I put into it. Overall it wasn’t a huge quantity of food thankfully.  I felt like my body was fighting me back for what I did to it. Like “Hey lady what’s the deal? We had a good thing going on down here and now you decided to pull this %#@! on us?  Well let’s see how you like this gas pain here and here! Bwahahahaha!!!!” Regardless of the stress, even on “Carb Fest 2013” day I was not as bad as I would have been prior to living healthier.  I have only allowed my one day of stupid eating and made myself realize why I was eating and what I was eating and making myself be more cognizant in my food choices.  Having the strength to push back on those old crutches of handling stress has been good.

Working out has been a little more of struggle but I am getting better each day.  I got a great workout in at my son’s karate class yesterday. His instructor allows the parents to walk/run when the kids are and to follow along with their conditioning exercises.  I was really proud that I did at least 50 push ups and sits up each…plus other exercises.  I even out did my hubby on some things. Now THAT felt great!

So, I am not beating myself up for no weight loss this week because in the perspective of everything one pound gained is not a tragedy…I’m cutting myself some slack because of what happened last week and allowing myself some time to work through those feelings but not resorting to food as a coping mechanism.  Using food that way has NOT helped me in any way and really made things worse in the past.  I am proud I did as well as I did because my initial reaction was to eat and eat and eat mindlessly.  I cleaned my house instead. 🙂

This pretty much sums up how I am on an “eating day”….very proud of myself that I recognized it and stopped myself from going full force!

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Weight Loss Results Week #13

Not much to report this week.  I logged no weight loss nor weight gain.  Granted that I was a total slacker in the working out department this week and there may have been a visit to Golden Corral and some large yeast rolls *may* have been consumed. 🙂  I am glad I didn’t log weight gain at least!

I have been working hard on strengthening my ankles and I have got to get back to my workouts.  I feel so much better when I do but I tend to let my day take me away and the next thing I know I’ve got dinner, kids, baths, karate, and it’s 10pm before I know it.  Need to schedule myself out better.  Now that the kids are home for summer break and I do a lot of tutoring with them during the day plus just the everydayness of everyday I have been challenged in getting the workouts scheduled.  Must get on this!!!  So, lesson learned this week and on to the next!

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Weight Loss Results Week #7

Ok, trying to keep the chin up this week.  I was hoping to be further along in my overall weight loss.  I weighed in at 189 so I gained a pound this week.  OK, when I read the first three sentences together, I think to myself, “Really? Ya gonna be upset about a pound?”  Well, not so much.  I am grateful it was not more weight gain and I’m not above the dreaded 190 threshold.  It’s just that at week seven, I was hoping to have lost at least 10 lbs. and its only been 6.  According to what I was hoping to be accomplishing at this exact point, I was wanting to be at 14 lbs lost.  I feel like I lost the whole month of May because for the whole month of May I lost only 1 pound. (Yes, the crazy tracker person in me has been monitoring this on a calendar.)

I truly have not been 100% back to the clean eating I was before my back flared up.  My emotions are very tied to my eating habits and I need to find a better way to wrangle that to the ground.  I just can’t give up now…I need to get to the grocery store and get some good things back into my pantry.  The lack of that in the house is making it harder because I reach for the bad stuff.  Which translated, means a food run to Wendy’s.  Not so good….

Time to put on my big girl pants and keep moving forward.  Feeling bad is not going to get this done….“Shut up Negative Nelly!  A food run for one last time to Wendy’s is not helpful!”  See what I mean?  I feel bad about not being further in my weight loss…which in turn what does Negative Nelly in my mind want to do? Eat!  Seriously, when is this carousel ride ever gonna be over?

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Weight Loss Results Week #3

Maybe I should have titled this “Weight Gain Results Week #3“?

You heard that right folks…gained 2 lbs. I am back at the dreaded 190 threshold. This was NOT an easy post to write but it is the reality and I can’t sweep it under the rug.  I took it a bit harder than I would have expected.  Now my positivity instincts are kicking in and I’m evaluating my diet and what I can do better this upcoming week.  I can not wallow but just keep moving forward. Or in the infamous words of Dori…

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What’s funny is that my body feels better and I can see a change in my face, so I know something is going on there and maybe has not made it to the scale yet?  I have started working out this week and maybe it’s all the dancer muscles I am building.  🙂 So you know I’ll be sneaking that scale out a few times and checking.  I can’t stand it!

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