Nostalgia and Pointe Shoes

December 10th is a nostalgic day for me…

28 years ago, a ten-year old girl had one of the biggest days of her little life.  It was a day she dreamed of, fantasized about, and held in her heart.  It was the day I was fitted for pointe shoes.

At my studio, Tennessee Festival Ballet, my teacher, Anna-Marie Holmes, with her hair in an elegant bun, navy blue long-sleeved leotard, with a matching navy skirt, announced to the class that we were ready for pointe shoes and to go to the upstairs “closet” to get our shoes.  The “closet” was a huge storage room of pointe shoes and such.  I had only caught glimpses of it before this day watching the company girls get their shoes and supplies. We weren’t allowed in there unless with the teacher.  We all ran up the carpeted stairs and squealed and jumped excitedly for our turn to get our shiny satin pink pointe shoes.   I can still smell the aroma from the closet, like freshly cut wood, and the squish of the thick carpet below my bare feet while I tried on pointe shoes.  I remember my teacher showing us how to use the lamb’s wool to pad our feet and showing the mothers how to properly sew the ribbons and elastics on for each student.

To a ten-year old ballet dancer, this was the biggest day of her life and still is in so many ways.  It was a rite of passage, a changing of the guard, a welcoming into the “club”.  I could not wait to start dancing en pointe.  A week later, with our pointe shoes tied on properly, we spent the last 10 minutes of class doing pointe strengthening exercises.  I am sure it hurt and was harder than I expected but I really don’t remember any of that.  I remember the feeling of height, the curve of my foot, and air whooshing around me with each releve.  This is a memory I hold dear.  I don’t know what became of those pointe shoes, maybe they have retired to some corner of my parents house or lost.  I very much wish I still had them but at least I have the memory of them and what the day meant to that 10-year-old little girl.

December 10th is my pointe shoe “birthday”.  Every year on this day I have always remembered what this day meant to me and still means to me.  What a good memory it is.

I am not certain but I think this could be a polaroid of my first pair of pointe shoes.

I am not certain but I think this could be a polaroid of my first pair of pointe shoes.

Remembering the Past…

So today I was moving some things around and came across a plastic storage tote I had forgotten about in my closet.  I was wondering what in the world is in here?

When I opened the lid, I had my answer…

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They were the last pair of pointe shoes I had 25 years ago.  Tears sprang in my eyes I was so happy to see them again.  I completely forgot that I had those tucked away.  They were Capezio’s Coppelia II and looked so good and shiny except for a little age wear and a mystery stain on the box of one shoe.  I hope I can get it out somehow. The heel elastics were shot but my old toe pads were waiting patiently for me on the inside of each shoe.  The ribbons were still neatly wrapped from when I had last put them in my dance bag so many years ago.  Looking at them it was like they were silently beckoning me to put them on and dance.  Oh how I wish I could…how I wish I could…

But I couldn’t resist putting one on to see if it still fit and to remember the feel of the satin and ribbons.  I did not dare to actually go en pointe but enjoyed the feel pointing my foot pressed to the floor.  They were not broken in very much so I must have had these for a short time before I stopped dancing.  The fit was decidedly much snugger and the length a bit short but my feet, body, and heart remembered the feel of being wrapped up together and we ached to dance again.

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She’s Got Legs

OK, so I have a secret obsession.  I go onto Discount Dance Supply and DanceWear Solutions, among other dance supply websites, and dream about the pointe shoes and leo’s I will fit into one day.  Also, the dancers on there are so pretty and I dream of having a shape similar to some of them one day.

So has anyone else been on their site and seen this dancer? Yessss….I was perusing the pointe shoes and dreaming….if they just didn’t make those things so pretty, pink, and shiny!

 Holi Canoli!  THOSE are the legs I aspire to one day. 

Discount Dance Supply Image

Discount Dance Supply Image of Elena Lobsanova

Weight Loss Results Week #5

This has been a good on-target week,  I lost 2 lbs this week!

I am starting to feel more in the groove of my routines for eating and working out and seeing results just solidify I am on the right track.  I am so glad I persevered when it was hard because if I hadn’t I wouldn’t be feeling as good as I do.

My clothes are fitting looser and the belly is no longer as noticeable in the mirror or when I look down, I can see straight to my feets!

Yes, I imagine those feets in pointe shoes….can’t help myself.

37 lbs to go!

33 lbs to go!

35 lbs to go!

34 lbs to go!

32 lbs to go!

Let’s Get Physical, Physical!

Now that I have your attention, that phrase isn’t what you think it means and no, I can’t sing it like Olivia Newton John…

I am just getting itchy to dance.  I seriously feel like a kid getting all antsy with excitement thinking about Christmas.  Only, my Christmas is in August, in a ballet studio, with no tree or decorations.

The other night I even had a dream I was back in the studio dancing.  I had on my pink tights, long-sleeved black leo, and pointe shoes.  I couldn’t do all of the combinations, but I was out there and dancing!  It felt so good to extend my legs and the pointe shoes were the prettiest shade of pink satin. After I woke up, I realized I must be thinking about dancing too much or reading too many ballet blogs.  I think it must be a combination of both!

So, I realized I needed to start doing some kind of physical fitness to help with getting ready for ballet class.  The Jillian Michaels on my DVD rack just isn’t cutting it.  I want something that feels…dancey!  I scoped out Amazon and found some really great options. Ballet Beautiful: Body Blast and, Xtend Barre: Lean & Chiseled.  I ended up ordering the Xtend Barre video because from its description and reviews will help me with the conditioning I need with the “dancey” feel I want.  I can stream Ballet Beautiful (which was cheaper than its’ DVD equivalent), so when I want to branch out on my workout options, I can!


I don’t expect my dance training to come from a video, I am saving that for the dance studio. I was amazed at how many ballet class instructions DVD’s there were…little scary! I am so excited to receive my video , it should arrive by Thursday.  Yay!

I can’t wait to get started and I hope these are some great appetizers.  I’ll let you know how I like them.  If you have any suggestions on what would be a good video or a conditioning activity, I welcome your comments!