I received this back in October during my self imposed exile…
In case it’s hard to see in the picture, her letter reads…
Rachael is a beautiful ballet dancer. She loves to dance. And she also needs to get back to writing her ballet blog because lots of people, including her awesome bff “Mrs.L,” really like reading about her journey regardless of whether or not she’s currently enrolled in classes. Seriously though, she inspires people, me included. I hope she realizes that.
This is a work of art from my dearest friend, Mrs. L. She sent it to me for encouragement. That is something she gave to me on so many levels and more than even I may realize. I also think it’s awesome that she gave her the zebra legwarmers that I love so much!
When I received it, I was really stunned that anyone would do something like this for me. I was a bit overwhelmed and it brought tears to my eyes reading it and seeing all the detail she put into it. It made me face something she knew I loved but was hiding from. It took me awhile to even show this to my husband because it hit such a deep place inside of my heart. I needed some time to just process it. It’s not easy for me to expose my deepest feelings and hurts to anyone but she has a keen eye on what’s going on with me like I had a giant bulls eye on my forehead.
I told her many times I was going to post about her drawing and I kept putting it off and off. Over the past months, it just didn’t seem like the right time. I think mostly I wasn’t ready to share it and I needed it to myself for awhile. I would think about blogging and then think about the drawing. I would think about ballet and feel the twist of not knowing when I will be able to dance and even if I should pursue it at all and then I’d think about the drawing. It was always there as a reminder that I can do this and to keep pushing forward, even though the bleak feelings I had wanted to tell me otherwise. It was like a ray of light in the darkest of places. For many reasons, this drawing and the meaning behind it, are why I did return to blogging and to taking up ballet again and not just giving up completely.
So, on the eve of going back to classes. This is to say thank you for all of your support, Mrs. L. You’re the best friend I could ever have and I couldn’t have done it without you.
Okay, I need a tissue now….