Not too much to report here this week, I weighed in at 182. Really, I am quite content with where I am this week given the developments in my life. I did give into what I labeled as “Carb Fest 2013” on Sunday…and really…I felt so gross afterwards and my body did not like the crap I put into it. Overall it wasn’t a huge quantity of food thankfully. I felt like my body was fighting me back for what I did to it. Like “Hey lady what’s the deal? We had a good thing going on down here and now you decided to pull this %#@! on us? Well let’s see how you like this gas pain here and here! Bwahahahaha!!!!” Regardless of the stress, even on “Carb Fest 2013” day I was not as bad as I would have been prior to living healthier. I have only allowed my one day of stupid eating and made myself realize why I was eating and what I was eating and making myself be more cognizant in my food choices. Having the strength to push back on those old crutches of handling stress has been good.
Working out has been a little more of struggle but I am getting better each day. I got a great workout in at my son’s karate class yesterday. His instructor allows the parents to walk/run when the kids are and to follow along with their conditioning exercises. I was really proud that I did at least 50 push ups and sits up each…plus other exercises. I even out did my hubby on some things. Now THAT felt great!
So, I am not beating myself up for no weight loss this week because in the perspective of everything one pound gained is not a tragedy…I’m cutting myself some slack because of what happened last week and allowing myself some time to work through those feelings but not resorting to food as a coping mechanism. Using food that way has NOT helped me in any way and really made things worse in the past. I am proud I did as well as I did because my initial reaction was to eat and eat and eat mindlessly. I cleaned my house instead. 🙂
This pretty much sums up how I am on an “eating day”….very proud of myself that I recognized it and stopped myself from going full force!
I have been avoiding posting for a few days and making decisions like this one is not easy but necessary. I even contemplated not writing about this at all but it is a part of my life and in my blogging I include what is part of my ballet life whether it being weight loss, sore muscles, or new leg warmers. It even includes the tough things that sometimes we don’t like to talk about but must acknowledge and keep moving onward. I think writing this out will be cathartic for me and to help me better manage the new changes in our lives in the near future.
Friday, my husband was unexpectedly laid off from his employment. For the past few days we have closed ranks and kissed the wounds and are looking to find ways to keep moving on. Since things are uncertain at this point, I will have to delay my ballet classes until a point in the future when things are more certain for our family. My heart breaks at the thought of that but it does not mean I will never get back into the studio but it will not be happening on August 19th.
I will continue to lose weight and workout, that is something I won’t stop doing because the dance classes will happen, hopefully just a few months from now. So I’ll be in even better shape than I am now and that will be a good thing. Yes, the blog is continuing on! I am still as ballet obsessed as ever and I always have lots to say, probably too much!
Things happen for a reason and I have to trust in my faith and that a year from now all of this will be but a memory. Being a grown up and making grown up decisions sometimes stinks but it must be done. Time to pull up my socks and put on my hat of positivity to help my family move on from this situation the best we can.
I did it!!! I made it to 181! This was a hard-fought weight loss week too. I had a bizarre spike up to 185 – and I was eating well and exercising. I did very little cheating. So I was a bit perplexed – maybe water weight?
I have continued to keep working out and I am seeing results from that too. My ankle is stronger. My flexibility is really coming along. I am on my way to having my right and left splits! My husband says my legs look more toned and that my clothes are getting looser and looser. Over the past two months I have lost 7.25 inches off of my body. That was awesome to see. I was a bit blown away that there is 7.25 inches less of me.
OK, so my next goal is to lose 6 more lbs in the next 4 weeks. That would put me at exactly 20 lbs lost since I started the blog. I can do that. I am so motivated my ballet classes are starting in less than 4 weeks and the finish line is coming up on the horizon. I know I wanted to be at 40 lbs down but that ended up being a little too aggressive for my abilities. Losing 20 lbs would be stinking awesome!!!!
Don’t forget to venture over to my Facebook page to keep up with my workouts and other ballet randomness I throw over there through the week. Haha!
It’s official peeps…I have branched out into the Facebook and Twitter sphere’s!
On Facebook, I’ll be doing some different kinds of updates there…just some fun and interesting stuff I come across which makes it another fun and easy way to stay connected. On Twitter, this is my first time using it so I’m not sure how that will go, but I am a prolific Facebooker and you will definitely see me there!
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Ok, they aren’t new but what I put in them is new! I don’t have a ballet bag yet, since I won’t need one for exactly one month from today (Pause here for giddiness)…but I needed a place to keep my ballet stuffs together. I love to organize and make things “new” and so I reorganized my drawers to make my very own ballet drawer!
So what do I have in stock you say?
4 Pairs of leg warmers (Yes, I am a leg warmer hoarder)
2 Pairs of ballet flats
My 25 year old pointe shoes
2 Pairs of convertible foot ballet tights
2 Leotards – one short sleeved one long sleeved
1 Chiffon wrap skirt
1 Pull on ballet skirt
Various workout tights/leggings
I can’t wait to get my ballet bag all together next! One month from today at this exact moment I will be in my first ballet class. Yippee!!!
This week I have remained at 182. So no weight loss nor weight gain. I expected this result although I was really pushing to get to 181. I fully expect I will next week. I have gotten into a good routine and rhythm of my eating. I am slowly winning the battle of the late night eating habit having found some good alternatives to help me quell those urges. I am getting more motivated to workout more. I am working hard towards working out 5 days a week plus doing stretches and my foot strengthening exercises everyday. My left ankle has made some great improvements and I am able to go on relevéwith little discomfort. The mystery broken left pinky toe is healing and I have finally been able to wear closed toe shoes in the past few days. Yay for sneakers again!
Why the surge of new motivation and energy? I got a fire lit under me when I decided the actual date of when I would be starting ballet classes. So each movement, each leg lift, each stretch I know is bringing me closer to that day. I can’t wait! Gotta go workout now…
So today I was moving some things around and came across a plastic storage tote I had forgotten about in my closet. I was wondering what in the world is in here?
When I opened the lid, I had my answer…
They were the last pair of pointe shoes I had 25 years ago. Tears sprang in my eyes I was so happy to see them again. I completely forgot that I had those tucked away. They were Capezio’s Coppelia II and looked so good and shiny except for a little age wear and a mystery stain on the box of one shoe. I hope I can get it out somehow. The heel elastics were shot but my old toe pads were waiting patiently for me on the inside of each shoe. The ribbons were still neatly wrapped from when I had last put them in my dance bag so many years ago. Looking at them it was like they were silently beckoning me to put them on and dance. Oh how I wish I could…how I wish I could…
But I couldn’t resist putting one on to see if it still fit and to remember the feel of the satin and ribbons. I did not dare to actually go en pointe but enjoyed the feel pointing my foot pressed to the floor. They were not broken in very much so I must have had these for a short time before I stopped dancing. The fit was decidedly much snugger and the length a bit short but my feet, body, and heart remembered the feel of being wrapped up together and we ached to dance again.
So my dearest mother sent me another great tid-bit and I had to share it! I know many of us are always looking for ways to help curb cravings and such and this was a brilliant one!
Another Mom bit: When you feel the urge to eat something sweet, eat something sour instead. A pickle for choice. It really helped me when I had to be so drastic when I was first diagnosed with diabetes and was on the verge of diabetic coma because my sugar was so high. The stupid doctor never had tested me for that or for the severe hypothyroid condition. Glad I finally fired him and found Dr. Mitchell.
Not long to wait for that first class now. Good for you!!!
This trick worked because it seemed like mom changed overnight! I get awful sweet cravings and especially at night…going to put this one to the test!
That is the day I will be beginning my ballet classes. I can not hardly wait! Seriously, I am giddy! I have butterflies in my stomach even thinking of it! I can’t wait to don the tights and leotard…and chiffon wrap skirt…all that I have does not need to be all out there…
Why August 19th you ask? That is the day my son goes back to school. I will drop him off at school, politely drive home and change into my ballet ensemble, and then go to my 9:30 am adult ballet beginner class for an hour and a half of ballet bliss.
Love this! From some previous posts you may remember I have been training my brain into a new way of thinking when I am at the precipice of temptation. Instead of jumping headlong into the buffet of carb-loaded sugared goodies, I say to myself, “Is this a good choice? Will this choice right now take me where I want to go?”
From my post yesterday, I confessed I did not surpass the test at Golden Corral..ok besides the yeast rolls, there also *may* have been a slice of apple pie. OK, that in and of itself is not the end of the world but I did partake in a few more choices last week that could have been made better. I am not going to give up all things I love to eat in my weight loss journey but to seek a level of moderation in my food choices. I need to learn to do that better. I do not eat yeast rolls nor apple pie of any kind on a regular basis nor do I routinely eat at Golden Corral. Also, I am a pro at forgetting that I ate something that was already not a good choice from the day or two before. So, I need to keep myself in check so I don’t derail myself when I am faced with making food choices. Had I not had some pasta, mashed potatoes, and sugary drinks this past week…I may have logged weight loss. Had I been more faithful to my workout routine I may have thought…”I can hardly walk from my workout, I am not going to throw away all of my hard work for a yeast roll.” Finding balance, like in ballet, is an everyday struggle.
When I came across this post on Facebook, it really meshed with “choice” questions I ask myself. I don’t like to think of the things I am giving up. It gives a negative connotation to what I am doing. I am the kind of person that wants to pull the good and positive out of any situation.
So the next time the yeast rolls are there for the taking I am going to ask myself, “Is this a good choice? What will I gain by making this choice?” I am interested in seeing what my answer will be. 🙂
By the way, check out Constructing a New Rick on Facebook. His page is amazing, a great inspiration, and I have learned so much from him.