Weight Loss Results Week #7

Ok, trying to keep the chin up this week.  I was hoping to be further along in my overall weight loss.  I weighed in at 189 so I gained a pound this week.  OK, when I read the first three sentences together, I think to myself, “Really? Ya gonna be upset about a pound?”  Well, not so much.  I am grateful it was not more weight gain and I’m not above the dreaded 190 threshold.  It’s just that at week seven, I was hoping to have lost at least 10 lbs. and its only been 6.  According to what I was hoping to be accomplishing at this exact point, I was wanting to be at 14 lbs lost.  I feel like I lost the whole month of May because for the whole month of May I lost only 1 pound. (Yes, the crazy tracker person in me has been monitoring this on a calendar.)

I truly have not been 100% back to the clean eating I was before my back flared up.  My emotions are very tied to my eating habits and I need to find a better way to wrangle that to the ground.  I just can’t give up now…I need to get to the grocery store and get some good things back into my pantry.  The lack of that in the house is making it harder because I reach for the bad stuff.  Which translated, means a food run to Wendy’s.  Not so good….

Time to put on my big girl pants and keep moving forward.  Feeling bad is not going to get this done….“Shut up Negative Nelly!  A food run for one last time to Wendy’s is not helpful!”  See what I mean?  I feel bad about not being further in my weight loss…which in turn what does Negative Nelly in my mind want to do? Eat!  Seriously, when is this carousel ride ever gonna be over?

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Measuring Up

Guess who is armed with a measuring tape? And I’m not afraid to use it!  Ok, maybe a little bit…

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Knowing my weight loss isn’t enough now.  I want to know the inches lost so I can have a better understanding of  why my shirts are fitting better now.   In other words, how else can I drive myself batty on a weekly basis?  Haha!

Ok so here goes the inital measurements:

  • Waist: 40″
  • Belly: 48″
  • Hips: 47″
  • Thighs: L  25 1/2″  R  24 1/4″
  • Calves: L  15 1/4″   R  15 1/2″
  • Arms:   L  13 1/2″    R 13 1/4″

Weight Loss Results Week #6

I weighed in today at 188 lbs which means I gained 1 pound.

As expected this week there was no weight loss because of all the crap I ate.  I am actually very happy there was not more weight gain.  I tried hard to watch the quantity of what I ate.  Additionally, I think the fast food junk I ate made me feel worse.  I felt lethargic and almost “down” and the more I ate the more I craved it.  What a vicious cycle.  Thankfully I am digging my way out of that tunnel and I have been much better in my habits in the past two days.  I hope that next week I will be able to get back to working out.  My back is doing better but it is not great.  I definitely have to treat it with kid gloves.  Cheers to next week!

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Mom Knows Best

Received this message from Mom today…

No heat!! Ice pack 15 min on 45 min off. Small glass of white – Not Red – wine helps too. Ask me how I know all this. Hope you get better soon. Love you.

Sweet…any injury that involves drinking wine maybe I shouldn’t “whine” about anymore?

Since Mom keeps coming up with all these nuggets of wisdom I am dedicating her own category – “Mom-isms”

Yes, the ice has been helping.  Husband is under orders to pick up a bottle of Moscato on the way home from work.

Because I am forced into being stationary all I am doing is writing blog posts…got more in the works…Haha!

Couldn’t resist the Betty White funny…

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Yowza!

Well, this weekend pretty much was a loss and it’s stretching into the week too.

I spent most of it in bed because I have some inexplicable back pain in my lower back.  Drop something on the floor?  Well, it’s gonna stay there I can tell you that. Feet are cold and want to pull on some socks?  Feet are gonna stay cold.  I have taken meds, icy/hot, heating pad, hot showers…nothing gives me much relief except laying in bed on my side with a pillow between my knees.  I do not like doing nothing.  I feel so useless because I can barely do anything.  I have about 9,349 things to do and this is not one of them.  I am really worried it’s going to derail my weight loss momentum I have going too.

For some “back” story (pun is intended haha!), about a year ago I was leaving my house to get my son from school.  I was recovering from a badly sprained left ankle and you have to step down when walking out the front door.  I somehow managed to do a magnificent flop on my front stoop.  I sprained the other ankle, bloodied up hands and an elbow, and I strained my back.  Keep in mind I weighed nearly 200 lbs.  I am surprised someone didn’t yell “Timber!”  It happened so fast I didn’t know anything had happened until I was on the ground.  Ever since, I have been dealing with the strained back and I somehow have aggravated it to the tenth degree.

I do not know why this has decided to latch itself on to me at this point.  I worked out Monday-Thursday.  I always take great care to protect my back during exercises.  Recently, I felt like the exercise has been helping it to feel better.  Never was there a point I felt like I did something and pulled it.  Friday, I hung out with a friend, it was bugging me more than usual but nothing to write a blog post about.  Now comes Saturday morning.  I wake up and I feel like I have been torn in two.  I have my son and his friend over so I gotta deal with it.  As the day progresses, so does the pain to the point I can hardly walk.  Then after the kids were changing out of their swimsuits my son decided it would be funny to throw it in my face.  Why he did this I don’t know.  He is the sweetest and kindest kid and I guess he thought it would be funny.  Well it was not.  As a reaction I jerked to the left to avoid the cold wet swimsuit in the face and I think I heard my lower back actually scream…or was that me?  Since that moment I have been nearly bed ridden.

Thanks to my wonderfully developed coping skills (soooo not true) I was not sticking to my healthier eating choices and eating whatever the husband will get for me.  Standing up and cooking is not going to be happening.  I did do better this morning but I will need to eat much better thanks to the sodas, burgers, Chinese takeout, and pizza that was flying around this weekend.  Food is an emotional crutch for me and why I have gotten so fluffy.  “Feeling bad?  Let’s eat this! Having a bad day? This cake will make it all go away!  Everyone deserves a treat every two hours!  Don’t forget the cheese puffs!”

The fact I am seeing how my thoughts and emotions fuel poor eating choices is a good thing but I have to find a way to retrain those thoughts.  I am very weak when it comes to those thoughts.  After I “treat myself” I end up feeling worse than what made me feel bad in the first place.  I have been so worried I gained weight I weighed myself this morning and thankfully I didn’t.  It wasn’t worth it to me to negate all the hard work because my back hurt and I felt sorry for myself.  That’s the dark negative thoughts that want to keep me fat and the skinny girl in me is trying so hard to fight her way out.  I guess she fought so hard she pulled a muscle.

Gonna take it easy and smell like icy/hot for the rest of the week I guess…

This One’s for You

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Dedicating this to all who all love ballet!

This certainly brings to mind all the fellow adult ballet beginner bloggers out there who made me feel I certainly was not the only one out there.  This one’s for you 🙂

Swan Lake LIVE from the Mariinsky Theater

Folks…I am hyperventilating…..for realz…

You can see the Mariinsky dance LIVE for the cost of a movie ticket…It is being broadcast LIVE from the Mariinsky Theater II on June 6 only.  You can view it in 2D or 3D.

Here is the link to the website Mariinksy Cinema

Here is the promo video… 

Use this list for finding participating movie theaters.  I found it more up to date than the one through the Mariinsky Cinema site.  At first it said there were none in my area offering this movie but I did some more research and discovered there were theaters offering it in the big city nearby.

I’M GOING TO SEE THE MARIINSKY DANCE LIVE!!!!!!!    Oh! I just may faint….

Run to your online ticket retailer and get your tickets.  You know all the local dance schools are going to be rushing to see this and will have sold out shows.

This is my dream ballet performed by my dream company…I would never have an opportunity to see this live in the Mariinksy and this would be the closest I will ever get….Yes, my tickets are purchased. 🙂

** Please note I was not compensated or asked to promote this at all…I am really just that excited about this and wanted to share it with all of my peeps to go and enjoy it too! **

Visions of Sugar Plums Dancing in My Head – Part Deux

The conclusion to Sugar Plums Dancing in My Head

I am fired up now.  “Ballet!  Pink tights!  Plies!  I’mma be a bunhead!”  I go to the website for the studio I went to before and they thankfully have daytime adult beginning classes and some open intermediates too.  I soon learn it is the only studio in the area that offers adult daytime classes.  Not that the town I live in is dripping with ballet but we do have some nice studios. I am a mom and a nanny and with the tikes getting out of school soon, day classes over the summer would not be possible.  Evening classes would not either.  My husband’s work schedule fluctuates greatly in the summer and who knows when I could make an evening class.  I don’t want to be stop and start about this new endeavor.  I want to make the commitment.  It looks like I will need to wait until the kiddo’s are back in school.  But that is soooooo far away!  I want to go NOW!

Now, I am a believer of providence.  Things happen for a reason and timing is a part of that too.  I really need to lose weight.  I now have an awesome purpose for losing weight.  I have finally found the motivation I need to lose the weight but I need the time to lose the weight.  This summer delay may not be so bad after all…I could start to lose some poundage over the summer so maybe my wrap skirt will actually wrap all the way around me as opposed to refusing to meet me in the middle like before…(Yep…I’ll leave you with that visual for a moment, take your time.)

Before I know it, I have grabbed a notebook (the one I replaced with my pretty pink one here.) and started brainstorming on how I can dump this weight, get stronger, and be more flexible.  I evaluate the time between now and classes starting in August.  For ease of math, I make it a 20 week goal.  (It is actually two weeks beyond the start of ballet classes.)  At losing 2 lbs a week, that is forty-freaking pounds!  I can totally do this!  Had I decided how much I was going to lose before figuring out how I was going to lose it…well I would have felt like it was not possible.  This really is do-able.  That wrap skirt is SO going to wrap….

If you have made it this far (I hope you have!), you may be wondering, “How did a notebook turn into a blog?”  Because it can, baby!  I love to write. It’s in my soul nestled somewhere close to dance. I wanted something that felt formal and made me accountable to achieve these goals.  I didn’t want some random Facebook post that didn’t mean more than the time it spent at the top of my timeline.  So, I turned to WordPress, tinkered around a bit and had this site, as you see, up and going.  Only you couldn’t see it.  I set it to private.  After debating, I decided the best thing was to share this with others.  I really learned a lot from other bloggers and wanted to give back, per se.  Plus, it felt more real and while it can be hard to put your 195 lbs self out there for others to read about and what-not, it adds to the accountability I need to attain these goals.  Going public was a good decision.  What’s different than when I walk out of my house and other strangers “see” me in a store or walking down the street?  The difference in a blog is they will “see” more of what is going on in my life than the 5 seconds it took to glance and move on.  So I changed the settings to “public” and now here we all sit together before our computers, tablets, and smartphones.

So that’s it…that’s all she wrote folks.  (Well, I will write more, just saying)  Thank you for reading this loooong post and hanging in there with me.  I have been overwhelmed by the amount of support I have received and for that I am deeply grateful.

There is one thing I learned after I finished writing this blog post…even though I had stopped dancing for the past 24 years…the sugar plum fairies never stopped dancing in my head…

Made My Fat Cry

This is my shirt after working out yesterday but not the same shirt from the post here.  Ok, a little gross I admit, BUT I love seeing how hard I worked.  I made my fat cry!  Plus, this is a shirt I have never really worn.  I got it on a super sale at Target like three years ago or something but I never liked how it clung to the belly and the shoulders were a little snug.  Getting dressed yesterday to workout I thought, “Huh, let’s see how this fits now.  I know I won’t wear it to work out in.”  Well, ya know what?  I wore it. 🙂

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I threw in my ballet slippers to make it a “ballet” picture. Ha!